--last day of freedom
sighs.
school's starting tmr.so blahhs.im feeling so depressed.and i dun noe whether its cos school's starting again or whatt.
it all started at abt one a.m. todaee.
sighh.jon sent me a msg.and sorta freaked me outt.that was followed by a 50 minute talk on becky's handphone.
-sorie becks-
talked abt all sorts of things.and thought we settled stuff.but apparently everything is still quite messed up.or so to speak.its like it was so amicable and everything.we were very agreeable and all the terms were agreed upon.we even came to a whatsit?
verdict.
yeahh.that's the word he used.
basically.we were agreeable and we kinda rushed the byes.but when i woke up in the morning i was kinda like is that what i reallie want? is that how it has to be.i kinda felt sadd.
and lost.
and confused.
reallie confused.
i dunno.
went to church.jon had this long papaya face.
icks.
i hope it wasn't becos of the talk.but i have this badd feeling that it was.
sorie.
then we had lessons.it was actually quite cool.
except for the fact that all my
'secrets' came out.hahahhs.
cos instead of the planned lesson,we sorta had a girl talk.about relationships and all.sharon being the more
experienced one gave her two-cents worth of advice.
and time just flew by like that.towards the end it became more awkward cos like all the aunties and uncles started coming in.so couldn't realie speak freely.
service was okaee.i paid attention!!! yays.hahahhs.yeahh.
after that cheryl and i went out for lunch at macs together.we had a good girl talk again.we shared lotts of stuff.
thanks for trusting me yeahh gurl.takkaire and rawk on..
then was rehearsal and all.met jon and aaron again.and their cousin melanie.
she's sooo grown up already.it was just a few years back that she was
this tall*hand at knee level*
groans.
which reminds me.
im not growing anymore.
after that came home and watched
chariots of fire.
cool show.
bout this guy who refused to run in an olympics heat just cos it was a sunday.it was like wow.
makes me wonder.would i have done that after working like nobody's business.would i have given everything up to obey God?
sigh.
sometimes i think my faith is like wayy shallow.which is quite sadd when you think abt it.
-rachhie out-
grinns.
